Still don't know..

So, I still don't know what I'm doing or why.. I suppose it is a diary for myself.  Still waiting to hear from the unemployment department if I will be receiving unemployment.  Even if I "win", I'm sure my former employer will fight it.. an then if they win, I owe the money back - so what is the point?

No good jobs on the market today... trying to see if there is something different that I haven't thought of.

So maybe I should explain the name of the blog...

It all has to do with a high school teacher / friend that is/was my hero, mentor, best person I've ever known.  She is who I am still and always am inspired by.  She wasn't perfect, this I know, she made many mistakes just like everyone - I am not blind to this however, she was incredible, warm, safe, funny, and to me... perfect.  She was a parent to me during high school when I had my share of parent issues.  She taught me that it was ok to be me and to be proud and inspired by myself.  Anyway, she had at one time gave me a little card that had Believe on it with a quote.. "To accomplish great things you must not only act but also dream not only plan but also believe".  She would talk about the journey of life and that we don't have all the answers but that we need to find blind faith.  Hence, the title.. She died in 2006 of a malignant brain tumor and even though I hadn't seen her in years, we mailed each other and I miss her terribly... I wish she was still in the world.   I felt better with her in the world.  I choose to believe she is in my heart always and with me somehow during my life good and and bad.

So, I am trying to find the blind faith... my journey for blind belief...